My struggle with fitness

Hi loves,

I know it’s been awhile since I’ve written a blog…and I’m pretty sure I said that last time. But I truly do want to be more consistent with my posts.

I hope everyone is staying safe and healthy during these tough times. I wanted to come on here and talk about health and fitness (I can hear my boyfriend laughing at me as I typed that). I say that because my boyfriend loves fitness…I mean he’s getting his PhD in exercise physiology….and I hate working out (they aren’t lying when they say opposites attract). I know I shouldn’t hate working out, as it’s good for my well-being, my anxiety, my heart etc, but i’ve never been able to get into it like a lot of other people.

Before the closure of my gym, my boyfriend would give me workouts to do. And I tried my best to follow but some days I just wasn’t motivated or I didn’t want to do the workout that he had suggested. This would frustrate my boyfriend because I would constantly ask for help but then I wouldn’t take his advise. Now that the gym has been closed for months I have been struggling even more. I do home workouts but don’t feel as motivated as I previously had been when I was able to go to the gym. Ryan has started running more and he has been encouraging me to start running as well. I’ve been on a handful of runs so far…and by runs I mean running then walking, running then walking. I am going to continue to run and see if I get better. I use nike run club to track how many kilometres I run. I will say beating my own records have been a motivating factor. My fastest 1K is 6 minutes and 22 seconds🏃🏽‍♀️…which may be slow but hey I’m proud.

Don’t get me wrong, I know health and fitness is more than just working out. I know that what I eat plays a HUGE role. But man, do I love food!!. I think I love anything that is not healthy for my body 🍕🍔🌭🍫🍭. In no way am I going to put myself on a certain diet. But I definitely want to incorporate more vegetables 🥒🥬, more fruit 🍎🍌and more protein into my lifestyle. As someone who doesn’t eat a lot of meat, I need to start eating other foods which are high in protein. A big issues I have is no self control, for example if the break room has free donuts 🍩 , 99% of the time I’m going to eat one. Treating yourself every once in a while isn’t the end of the world but sometimes it’s ok to say no. (basically what I’m saying is the break room has had too many free donuts lately😂)

I wanted to write about this to hold my self accountable. I am currently at my heaviest weight…I know a number on a scale shouldn’t matter but it motivates me. Am I obese in anyway? no. But am I unhappy with the way I look? Yes. I may even be slightly overweight for my height but not for long. As summer is approaching I decided to try my shorts on. They still fit but are far too tight for my liking. So this is the start for me. The start of a healthier lifestyle. The start of learning to love to workout. I can’t wait to see the changes to my body, inside and out.


Until next time✨